Deeply moved

At Ps and G’s this morning, I was deeply moved after Communion, thinking of being a “single parent” now, that I will be going to see my son in Romeo & Juliet alone, and I had a picture of Doria Ragland in my mind. She’s the mother of Meghan Markle, and at the recent Royal Wedding she alone represented Meghan’s family. She looked dignified and very proud of her daughter. The next worship song was of the Phoenix rising from the ashes, God restoring us after trauma. I need to be patient with myself, it will take a long time to recover from the trauma of my exhusband’s betrayal. I know God is with me in all things, consoling healing and guiding me.
I thought of the sparkling sea- it was light jade green.

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